“I’m like 29, and I’ve always considered myself a straight woman, but recently, I started getting really curious about seeing other women naked. I had seen plenty of other women naked before, in locker rooms and such, but I had a few experiences that made me more curious in a sexual way. I wanted to get a closer look.
And so one night, I was home alone in my room, and got on the internet to, y’know, like look at a lot of nude women. I started by searching for things and then found myself over and over again on Tumblr. I got instantly wet and got naked and started masturbating. It all was happening so fast, here I was, looking at other women and getting very turned on. I was just hungrily typing random things like “big breasts” and “shaved pussy” and saw more and more images that turned me on in a whole new way. I was fascinated by their curvy bodies, beautiful breasts and the way the women presented themselves in very sexual ways, with their legs or labia spread, mouths open, eyes wanting sexual attention, and it was turning me on so much.
I remember having at least six orgasms that night and staying up really late. The next morning I wasn’t even sure what to think, but the next evening I was back again for more. I looked up every variation of women I could think of: tall, short, blonde, redhead, big breasts, small breasts, skinny, chubby, everything. I found myself very turned on by photos of amateurs, homemade photos, anything that looked like a real woman I would have a sexual encounter with.
Ever since, I still get on Tumblr and get off to other women naked of all types and sizes, and enjoy my fantasy. I still have never been with another woman, and probably never will be, but the idea always gets me off.”
ACTUALLY sorry not to get #2personal but this is something i’ve been thinking about deeply over the past several months, so! a question i see a ton is, “how do i know if i’m a butch girl or a trans guy?” followed by a litany of reasons why either label could apply to the asker – and of course, you are the only person who can answer this question for yourself, and there is no right or wrong way to go about exploring your identity. but. if you are really torn, if both feel true for you, if you feel like you’re wandering around in a weird, illegible grey area: you can sit down and make that grey area your home. you are allowed to do that. you are not invalidating butch women or trans men as political classes by doing that. you are not necessarily on a quest to come down on one side or the other. non-binary identity is real. bigender identity is real. no matter how messy or inconvenient or illegible your gender identity may seem to outsiders, it is still real, and it is beautiful and it is yours and no one can take it away from you. there is a long and rich history of people who felt the same way you do, and you’re not alone.
Moving from tumblr to greener pastures 